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I discovered an old diary I used to keep. Well, it's not really that old, maybe a year to two years, but my how things change. Before, I used to write to impress not to express. It's very important for me to write out how I am feeling. It keeps me sane. I used keep another on-line journal for nearly two years, but again that was to impress. I didn't always write how I felt, but more so how I thought I should feel. It was a lot of "shoulds" and not actually reality. But now, I get it out. Somethings I choose not to write about because I cannot exact change in those areas.

For example, I dislike our president immensely. As of right now, there is nothing I can do about it. The next candidates have not been announced and I do not have any money to donate to anyone or group who can get his ugly monkey face out of the White House by impeaching him. Second, I am pro-choice. I will even go so far as to say I believe in killing babies because I want the anti-choice folk to realize that I know and acknowledge what abortion is, on their terms. So, killing babies inside the womb, if that's what needs to happen to prevent another unwanted child from being born, so be it. There are so many stories of abuse, neglect, and poor parenting that I would think those anti-choice groups' time would be better spent helping to create better lives for those already here and not worry so much about who is not here yet.

Anti-choice people like to argue that well if "your mom had an abortion you wouldn't be here." Well, in my belief system I wouldn't ever know that I wasn't here and that's that. I don't see how that's some magical statement that's meant to change my mind. However, I am elated at the FDA's approval of Plan B as an over-the-counter medication. That's great news for women and their bodies. Those under 18 cannot buy the pills without a doctor's note, but I read that depending on the girl's body and physical maturity, her body may not react well to the drug. I am not sure I buy that and do see it as another way to control the youth of America.

This next topic sort of ties it. I recently met a man around my age who does not believe in dinosaurs and does not believe in evolution. I did not argue when he said he does not believe in evolution, that is something many people discount as merely theory. However, dinosaurs? What are all those bones then? He claims to be a Christian, yet has one of the worst attitudes I've ever encountered. He has no real knowledge about the history of Christianity and takes everything as a literal idea. I fear for this young man's future because he could be taken advantage of due to his naivity and willingness to believe things that he's never researched, that he's never taken the time to seek out answers for himself. He is also one of the angriest people I've ever met and some day his temper will get him into trouble, of which no one can get him out.

I am hungry. I want pancakes. Again. :)